Denial (1/1/07)

Hold your breath
Slow the heart
Remind yourself
that you’re alive

Breath in
Breath out
Push the memories
away

Don’t cry
Don’t scream
Don’t overthink
Don’t feel

Eat
Sleep
Smile-
you’re being watched

Laugh at their jokes
Don’t let them touch you
Don’t let them see
Don’t let them get too close

Lock the doors
Don’t answer the phone
Turn out the lights
Stay inside yourself

Forget what he smelled like
Forget what he sounded like
Forget what he tasted like
Forget what he felt like

Wash away the blood
Cover up the scars
Ignore what you can’t accept
Sweep his face under the rug

And pretend it never happened